Never gonna back down from a challenge, but I will always try to be a gentleman. On my way in life only to try and reach the highest level of paradise, because it's not about the man its about who he can become. Always thinking with my mind racing a hundred miles a second, pondering the little and big questions. - Josh W
Monday, May 22, 2017
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Causality
It looked at me, with cold dead eyes, it sat there starring. I tried to look away, but I couldn't, my body wouldn't allow it, I was in a state of complete paralysis. The only thing that allowed me to move was the sudden vibrating of my phone as it lit up with a text message from my brother. I looked at it with awe as all it said was "don't move, don't go anywhere, stay in your room and keep looking out of your window, don't take your eyes off of it." I panicked and went to my door to see the hallway dark and empty, I slammed the door and struggled to lock it as I was trembling with fear, but finally I succeeded. As I came back though, it was gone, without a trace, no footsteps, nothing, where had it gone? I didn't care I still felt safe, as I was in my house and it was outside. All seemed calm for the moment, until the security system screeched "front door open." I felt my stomach drop, it was in the house, no one except me and whatever it was, no man, no animal, it had no soul, no heart, nothing, whatever it was......all it had was me trapped inside my own house....
I finally looked at my phone again, another text notification appeared, this time it read "I know it's inside the house. I called the police. Mom and dad can't find out about this, do not call or text them, we have to handle this on our own...." As I was about to ask him what this was all about, I heard the creaking of the stairs. My heart stopped, I instantly went stiff, I turned slowly around to look at the door and all I could hear was the steps of the creature with every creak as it seemed to claw its way up the stairs. Every step made my heart beat faster and faster, until it all stopped, I waited to see what would happen, but nothing happened, it was silent, so silent my ears started to ring. I ran to my closet to grab a old baseball bat to use for protection, but I didn't know if the fear inside would allow me to swing at the beast. I must have moved too fast and made too much noise, because next thing I knew it was coming to my room, scraping at the wall as it came closer and closer to me.....
It stopped and all I could hear was the creature taking deep slow breaths, it just sat there, until it spoke to me. It was nearly a growl as it said "you know what you two did, you caused this to happen." I screamed back "I didn't do anything, I don't know what you are, leave me alone!" All it said was "Fine then face your consequences" and it was gone. It was over, it was all over, I was safe, it was gone. I looked outside and it was gone, I swept my way through the house and found nothing. I felt like a weight was lifted from my chest, I thought everything was good, everything was fine now. Then my phone lit up with another text, It was my brother again..........and all it read was "what.......what did you do. they're gone......they're all gone....."
I finally looked at my phone again, another text notification appeared, this time it read "I know it's inside the house. I called the police. Mom and dad can't find out about this, do not call or text them, we have to handle this on our own...." As I was about to ask him what this was all about, I heard the creaking of the stairs. My heart stopped, I instantly went stiff, I turned slowly around to look at the door and all I could hear was the steps of the creature with every creak as it seemed to claw its way up the stairs. Every step made my heart beat faster and faster, until it all stopped, I waited to see what would happen, but nothing happened, it was silent, so silent my ears started to ring. I ran to my closet to grab a old baseball bat to use for protection, but I didn't know if the fear inside would allow me to swing at the beast. I must have moved too fast and made too much noise, because next thing I knew it was coming to my room, scraping at the wall as it came closer and closer to me.....
It stopped and all I could hear was the creature taking deep slow breaths, it just sat there, until it spoke to me. It was nearly a growl as it said "you know what you two did, you caused this to happen." I screamed back "I didn't do anything, I don't know what you are, leave me alone!" All it said was "Fine then face your consequences" and it was gone. It was over, it was all over, I was safe, it was gone. I looked outside and it was gone, I swept my way through the house and found nothing. I felt like a weight was lifted from my chest, I thought everything was good, everything was fine now. Then my phone lit up with another text, It was my brother again..........and all it read was "what.......what did you do. they're gone......they're all gone....."
Tuesday, May 9, 2017
David Foster Wallace - This Is Water
I started to relate to the speech, when he mentions the examples of situations in the grocery store about people, about what I think about them, about what others think, I understood. I agree with him in the sense that we should not think that we are the center of the universe, that we are only person who matters, I see people yelling at people who work jobs I am sure they do not want to be at, not fulfilling the dreams they had. Overall there was not much that I disagreed with, it just opened my mind to thinking more, to really start to question things I see again, because the reality of it all is that I don't know, and people should not just think about themselves,and we need to be aware of the little things in life,
My whole life I have had one goal in life, go to the University of Southern California, to get that letter in the mail, that says "USC takes great pleasure in informing you of your acceptance for the class if 2018." While I am attending the University of Southern California I have two majors in mind that I want to study, those being law and or sports journalism. While I am also there I want to take advantage of being able to go to one of the best cinema schools in the country and get a minor there.
I feel like for the most part I am ready for college, mostly when it comes to the academic side of it, I am definitely a little scared of the life aspect. I think that for most people the aspect of living on our own for the first time is what scares people the most, it's a big change for most people, while I am nervous I am not to worried about it. I think that now that I have seen this video I think I am going to think more while I am at college, and I believe that I will be more aware of others situations.
I think what excites me most about graduating from ASU Prep is that it's kind of the transition from childhood to adulthood, we go from living with out parents to living in a dorm with a bunch of strangers. I think the future of being at college is what excites me the most, meeting new people and being able to work toward and fulfilling my dreams. Now what scares me is the unknown, not knowing if I'll get there, just the whole unknown, but I never said that I wasn't up to the challenge.
I believe that I am ready to take care of myself in the "real world" I usually am pretty independent so I think I am ready to take on the challenges that it throws at me. To me the "real world" is the same as adulthood, it's about getting a job, living on your own, and being able to take care of yourself. This is what we all have to face, this is what we all have to take on, and I would by lying to you if I said that I wasn't nervous, but I'll have to face those roadblocks when I get there.
I feel like for the most part I am ready for college, mostly when it comes to the academic side of it, I am definitely a little scared of the life aspect. I think that for most people the aspect of living on our own for the first time is what scares people the most, it's a big change for most people, while I am nervous I am not to worried about it. I think that now that I have seen this video I think I am going to think more while I am at college, and I believe that I will be more aware of others situations.
I think what excites me most about graduating from ASU Prep is that it's kind of the transition from childhood to adulthood, we go from living with out parents to living in a dorm with a bunch of strangers. I think the future of being at college is what excites me the most, meeting new people and being able to work toward and fulfilling my dreams. Now what scares me is the unknown, not knowing if I'll get there, just the whole unknown, but I never said that I wasn't up to the challenge.
I believe that I am ready to take care of myself in the "real world" I usually am pretty independent so I think I am ready to take on the challenges that it throws at me. To me the "real world" is the same as adulthood, it's about getting a job, living on your own, and being able to take care of yourself. This is what we all have to face, this is what we all have to take on, and I would by lying to you if I said that I wasn't nervous, but I'll have to face those roadblocks when I get there.
Thursday, May 4, 2017
Pizza Noir
"Why? Why is it so cold? Why is my pizza so cold? You were just delivered......." those were the words i uttered as I took my first bite. That night, oh that night. It was a a stormy night, nothing in particular to worry about or so I thought. I had a number of cases left and I grew hungrier and hungrier with each passing file. Then I came across a unsolved file that answered my question, I knew it was perfect, like it was almost meant to be. Under suspects there was a number for a pizza parlor one of the suspects had worked at, I knew what I needed to do. I swiftly moved for the phone, making sure not to second guess my decision. I rang and ordered the usual a pepperoni mushroom. They said it would be in my hands in 20 minutes or less, that's when everything went downhill.
I kept going through the case file as my stomach growled with every passing minute, I had wondered what this case had been about as I never questioned as to why he was a suspect. I kept reading, it had turned out that the boy who was only 17 at the time was the one who came across a crime scene too explicit to describe to any one who had humanity left in them. I had looked at my clock, ten minutes down, and ten to go. The case file became more and more gruesome but I didn't lose my appetite it grew for some reason, maybe that's what this job did to me. I guess after you have seen what I have stuff like this just goes over your head and you forget quickly. I looked again and it was time, but nothing, no ring for me, nothing I had waited and it never came, the ringing that could cure me of this unbearable feeling inside of me. I grew restless and went to check myself, it was there, laying on the steps of the precinct. I grabbed the box to examine its contents. Back to my desk I went only to realize that it was cold....... ice cold.
I sat down and grabbed a slice, but something was off, it was stiff, the crust, the cheese, all of it. I didn't think of it at the time but I was so hungry I sunk my teeth into the slice only to feel the sensation of ice overrun my mouth. I stopped and looked in horror at what I had just done. I threw the slice back to the box and could only stare at the near frozen pizza. What did I do, it hadn't been that long? I just got the pizza? how could it be so cold? What I didn't even think to ask is where was the delivery boy? Why did he just leave it? Without me paying? It just didn't add up, no delivery boy, no payment, and a cold pizza? what did it all mean? To the day it remains a mystery, what really happened, why the pizza was cold, where the boy was, why I didn't have to pay, and the only thing that still haunts me to this day,why that pizza was so, so cold......
I kept going through the case file as my stomach growled with every passing minute, I had wondered what this case had been about as I never questioned as to why he was a suspect. I kept reading, it had turned out that the boy who was only 17 at the time was the one who came across a crime scene too explicit to describe to any one who had humanity left in them. I had looked at my clock, ten minutes down, and ten to go. The case file became more and more gruesome but I didn't lose my appetite it grew for some reason, maybe that's what this job did to me. I guess after you have seen what I have stuff like this just goes over your head and you forget quickly. I looked again and it was time, but nothing, no ring for me, nothing I had waited and it never came, the ringing that could cure me of this unbearable feeling inside of me. I grew restless and went to check myself, it was there, laying on the steps of the precinct. I grabbed the box to examine its contents. Back to my desk I went only to realize that it was cold....... ice cold.
I sat down and grabbed a slice, but something was off, it was stiff, the crust, the cheese, all of it. I didn't think of it at the time but I was so hungry I sunk my teeth into the slice only to feel the sensation of ice overrun my mouth. I stopped and looked in horror at what I had just done. I threw the slice back to the box and could only stare at the near frozen pizza. What did I do, it hadn't been that long? I just got the pizza? how could it be so cold? What I didn't even think to ask is where was the delivery boy? Why did he just leave it? Without me paying? It just didn't add up, no delivery boy, no payment, and a cold pizza? what did it all mean? To the day it remains a mystery, what really happened, why the pizza was cold, where the boy was, why I didn't have to pay, and the only thing that still haunts me to this day,why that pizza was so, so cold......
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